If it were a real word, I would define binge-y-ness as: the tendency to go overboard after saying you will just “have a little.”
It pretty much sums up my life. I don’t have an addictive personality. I am not a perfectionist. I am not any of those other things we try to label ourselves with. But I do have a quality of binge-y-ness.
Case in point: Television. Oh, TV! How I love you so. If I don’t turn on the TV – on a Saturday morning, let’s say – I’m totally fine. I will workout, make breakfast, clean, and be a totally productive, functioning member of society. But once I turn it on, I’m HOOKED. I become useless. Let’s not even TALK about bingeing TV shows. Um, House of Cards, anyone? Game of Thrones? Gossip Girl? I have no shame. And suddenly, I just spent 5 hours watching poor Lonely Boy navigate adolescence.
Everything I do is sort of this way. I can hole up in a room with craft supplies and NEVER COME OUT. I can sit down at the piano and have two hours pass by. I realize these are pretty good binge-y-nesses, but still. It’s basically the opposite of ADHD.
And same goes for food. And wine. Oh wine. I can go days without drinking any at all, and really, that’s easy for me to do (because I am not an alcoholic, mom). But as soon as I have a glass…well, then it’s pretty much a bottle. And as soon as I make a batch of cookies or we order a pizza, well…you can guess the rest.
I can’t decide if I’m a moderator or an abstainer. I think it depends on the particular item. I do better abstaining from potato chips (just don’t start and you’re fine), for example, but moderating desserts (having them once in a while). Are you a moderator or abstainer? Are you binge-y? Has anything worked particularly well for you? Share your journey!